One. You can do anything.
You can do anything under the sun if you put your mind to it. The excuses you give yourself are you, yourself building barriers to not do it. You don’t have time, you don’t have this, you don’t have that, you can’t, you don’t know how to, are ALL you.
A lot of things that I thought people couldn’t do, I now realise, they can. You can stop loving someone one way, yet still be their closest counsel. You can travel alone, learn to paint, to dance or to make beautiful music. You can leave the person who you think has a hold of you, who sleeps around and repeatedly breaks your heart. You can forgive yourself for not being there for your friend. You can start living for yourself, even if you’re 68. You can even quit your life in America, move to Manali at the age of 50 and live life peacefully teaching English, Tai Chi, and the occasional gardening. You can go out and make more friends if you think you’re all alone, stuck in a toxic relationship. You can make unbelievable sacrifices for the people you love. You can even walk in front of a train.
Two. You have a choice.
You’ve always had a choice. You have a choice to not be the cheating asshole who gives your “girlfriend” lame excuses about commitment. You can choose to forgive the person who left you after two years of “hope”. You can choose to ignore your annoying mother-in-law. You can choose to not worry about losing your job and actually do something about it. You have the choice to not hurt your parents. You can choose to stay in bed and cry and hate the world and all the unfairness it throws at you, or you can choose to forgive. You have the choice to get up, take a shower and start painting. You can even choose to end your life in a moment of fleeting madness.
Three. You are an asshole.
No matter how good you think you are, how much of a god-abiding, righteous motherfucker you think you are, there is an asshole in you. In all of us. I don’t know about you, but I have an asshole side to me, a really shitty person who hates everyone, who gets angry, and just curses the whole world (or specifically an entire race of people, sorry! >_<) into fucking oblivion.
But I also realised that I am an asshole with a choice. A choice to not be an asshole. 😀
This year, no matter how shitty or insanely amazing it was, even with all the ups and downs, deaths, decisions, and sacrifices that I saw around me, is still the most remarkable year I have had the pleasure and blessing of living. And I have you to thank for.
You, if you have spoken to me this year, you have shown, by example, who you want me to be or who you want me to avoid.
You, you have inspired me in ways that words cannot express.
You, if you have not figured it out by now, have the power to bring about change in ways that you probably never imagined… ❤